December 31, 2016


It has been a crazy year. I don't know for you but 2016 was totally out of control.
Things happened which I'd never say they would. Good and bad ones. 

What happened?

- I started having more professional work as a photographer and videographer

- My painting was given to the President of the Republic of Slovenia as a gift 

- I've written and directed a short experimental film inspired by Frida Kahlo's self portrait with cropped hair. The film was then screened at the Digital Big Screen festival in Trbovlje, Slovenia and at International Early Birld student film festival in Sofia, Bulgaria.

The film is not yet online because I am still sending it to the festivals but will keep you updated when it will. :)

- I volunteered as a coordinator of photographers/video team at International Film Festival Kino Otok in Izola and met some amazing people and realised that I really want to work in the film field.

-And now I will go personal. About personal, I discovered that some people are afraid of what can be labeled as personal. Recently I had a lecture at my university where we had to present our works. And it was funny how some people said for some of my works that they are really personal, and they praised more my other works which could seem more "universal" or "detached".
But I don't want to make detached art. I am not inspired by detached art. Every art that contains personal is what is life-changing. Because it came from an experience. And from experience you can draw something, from experience you can write, you can make films. 
And those works are screaming of awe, because the contain something that is infinite. It's the human experience, the search for it, the search for moments that contain no time and place that make this illusion we are living less painful.

-I learned things are not forever. Relationships are not forever. We are constantly changing and reshaping and stretching ourselves. We are constantly growing. This is a beautiful period, period of growth, but it is so full of pain. 

-Is love a hoax, I am asking to myself? Are relationships as we know them just a product of capitalism and should we look for the alternatives? What is this male and female energy and how can we balance it without hurting each other? How rare are men who are not afraid of female power? Because the more I am reading and researching about what it means to be a woman, the more I am aware that we do possess some kind of mysterious power which was held back for so long. 

- It's important to be aware of the power that is in each one of us. It's the kind of force that only we have and we know what we can do with it. There is no one who should say to you what are you capable to do and what not. Only you know. And then go for it.

- key words for 2017: self-love, self-acceptance, fight, courage, truth. 

November 19, 2016


"You love in a way it should be illegal"

I was told recently.

After reflecting on this I realised that there is nothing wrong with loving this way. I simply can't love less.

I think love is the only force that keep us going and I am going to fall in love madly again and again, in a way you think it's illegal. Because it's my way and this is who I am. 

I will fall in love with random strangers on the street, with my fantastic friends who inspire me day to day, with people who shine the light and manifest it through painting, music, dance, poetry.

But I will try to keep away from falling in love with those who want to restrict my light and put it in the dark place. I will resist to put my heart again in the hands of those who squeeze it till there is no drop of blood in it. I will not put my love into conversations  and places where there is no space for me. 

There is no time to spend it on love that is not good. 

Love should be well spent. 
I need to give some of it to myself first. 
Because I've been giving it out to you for so long.

I just can't waste it any longer.

this was a lesson learned.

May 29, 2016

what is right and what is wrong

what is right and what is wrong
this world can be an amazing place
but also as cruel as a knife
do you dare to lick the blade?
is this just madness around us?
everything the opposite of what it should be

here we are- entertain us
here we are- give us what we want
here we are- smile bitch smile
here we are- dance bitch dance

and I go back to my corner
healing wounds which were not supposed to happen
too sensitive, over, over over
too much, not good, be like the others, normal, normal 

I will paint hearts for those who want pink world
I will colour the screens for those who shine inside
I will tell the tale no one did to you and me

you are fine as you are.

April 30, 2016


Dear readers,

I haven't been the most loyal blogger lately. I am even surprised when I go to check the statistics of this blog and see that there are still few of you who come and check if there is something new. 
It's been an interesting period. Let's be honest, it still is.
I tried many times to write something but it just wasn't the right time. Right now I'm writing this blog post while having a coffee in a bar facing Garda Lake. Beautiful place, there is nothing to say about it. I am waiting for my new video project to export because I have a deadline in one hour. Fingers crossed.
Lots of things happened in the past few months. I turned 27. And somehow this happened to be year of changes. And growth. And being honest to yourself and others. And making decisions.
I was always bad at choosing between things. Sometimes I go in a bar and I have a breakdown because I don't know what to take. And you can imagine what it comes with big decisions. I always try to listen my heart, but lately my head is trying to be more loud. 
The head wants what would be the most convenient. 
The head wants what is safe. What will prevent the heart from suffering.
But the heart wants adventure. 
The heart wants wild, crazy, spontaneous things.
So there comes the time where you have to take the decision: who to listen?
I remember the last time I listened to my head and made an awful decision to go study languages instead of going travel the world. I know that this decision lead to the many interesting experiences, but what would happen if I've chosen differently?
I will never know. 

For the past few months I've been feeling as I've come home. Literally, I did. I'm back to Ljubljana and studying what I was just dreaming about before. After I turned 27, I said to myself, no more compromises with who I am and what I want. And this is where comes the difficult part. Because in a Peter Pan world, it's great: everything falls in the right place, there are no obligations, no responsibilities. And in an adult world, there are. You are forced to take some decisions because you can't have it all. You can have one thing and have it good, but you need to decide. 
How to decide?
Do you consult tarot, do you meditate, do you read horoscopes, do you do some kind of voodoo thing?
How to know what is right and what is wrong? How to know if you are deciding for good? There are sacrifices to be made but which to do in order to be close to what we call happiness?

What I know is that I need to create. I need to go forward with what I do because it is the only way. It's where i can hide where everything goes wrong. And it's in my heart.

What if you could have everything in the world and be with no worries about how to get through month and in a nice place but what you have to sacrifice is exactly that part of your heart? Would you do that?

Here I am with all this questions on my mind, with all this drama in my head and still believing that art is the only flow that can keep me alive. In the past few months I've been reading a lot, questioning myself why I do art and what this can bring to the others. I became much more aware of what I am manifesting and how am I doing it. Because there is so much crap already in this world and you don't need more. What we need is things which make you come alive. We need raw, pure, vulnerable, strong, bold words, movies, books, paintings which make you feel what is already deep inside you but needs to be awaken. We need to be awaken. We need to come alive.

September 25, 2015


Hello dear readers of Drama in my head,

this is what happened in the months I was absent from blogging:

  • I decided I want to do my MA back in my home country, Slovenia: I was accepted to Video and new media at Academy of Fine Art in Ljubljana, and I'm starting in October. Really looking forward to it, even if this time studying will be mixing with working (first finding a job), creating and living between countries. And this should be great fun, I am just practicing how to surf the uncertainty. This is why I bought a minimalistic bracelet with written NOW, to remind me to live in the present. You can get yours here.

  • here is my vimeo profile if you want to check the videos I did with my dearest friend Rafael. Yes, they may not be what you expected and they may be weird, but who said the art must always be understood? This year at Venice biennale I saw video of Dalí having an interview on one american tv show. When the host asked him: Can you please explain us what this painting represent he was like: That's a difficult one. Dalí doesn't really know the meaning of this one, sometimes is too much even for him. For me, some of art shouldn't be explained, it should be felt deep down in bones. So if you will be watching the videos me and Rafael did, take your time. Put them in full screen and let everything go. You will feel the colours and music and get kind of high- but that was not the main goal. The main goal is personal for everyone. We see it as a transition period- you know when you are growing, everything feels like pain, but if you look back, that pain was in some kind of way beautiful.

  • The thing is, life really is unpredictable and you can't know what is waiting for you. Five years ago I was afraid of losing my dreams. I didn't know what was my way and if fashion design was the right choice or not. Now, at 26, I know I am the only one responsible for what I do and how I decide to spend my time. And I also know that things happen for a reason- the life leaves some space for magic. If I didn't make all those "mistakes", I wouldn't be here where I am now. I wouldn't meet all the amazing people I did if I made it in the first place.  It's important to make mistakes because they make us people. I am grateful for all the mistakes that led me here.

  •  My boyfriend told me a quote yesterday: There is no difference between a coward and a hero: they both feel fear. But what makes them different is the reaction: the hero reacts even if he is scared to death, while coward hides and waits things to pass. And this applies to life in general and to art. It's important to be brave when comes to exposing yourself. Standing out of the crowd. Doing things and moving forward, even if you know they are not perfect (yet).

  • I'm reading Houellebecq's works now. What hit me while reading Atomised is that the connections with people are actually the most important thing in our lives: if we have none, we have less reasons to live, to get bigger, to grow, to create. Of course there are people who prefer to be alone and connect just with nature, but I know that without my closest humans I'd feel really lost. Connections, real ones, are the most precious things in this world.

  • I saw Every thing will be fine by Wim Wenders yesterday. (unfortunately in Italian- in Italy they dub films). I liked the characters- they were not good or bad- they were just human. With flaws and good qualities. And in the end every thing will be fine. 

Love, Andreja

May 29, 2015


Lepo vabljeni na zaprtje razstave Tropska globina jutri, 30.5.2015 v Ziferblat Ljubljana (Vegova 8) ob 10.30, kjer bomo skupaj spili kakšno kavico in se malo podružili :)
Upam, da se vidimo! 

Spodaj pa video iz otvoritve, kjer povem kaj več o sami razstavi- pa Tjaša je res lepo zapela :)

April 28, 2015


I had an exhibition opening in Ziferblat Ljubljana last Friday and I want to share with you some photos. It was a really nice event with friends and some new people and  was happy for how it turned out.
The place Ziferblat is great: it's kind of cafe/living room where you pay the time you spend inside, not what you take. As soon as Barbara took me there I was completely sure that I need to make the exhibition in that place. People who work there are not the snobby waiters, but are warm and make you feel at home. Just great.

I came in the morning with my father who helped me with the arrangements- I'm so grateful for learning from him this practical side of being an artist.

 dario and me

Lucija from Ziferblat was asking few questions about my work and one of them was when did I start drawing: I answered that as I remember I made a great trend of drawing hens with crowns in kindergarten, and everyone was copying me. I need to find those drawings, seriously.

My dear friend and musician Tjaša sang few songs- listening to her voice is like going to a wonderful world of light violet colour. I didn/t know which songs she will sing, but she chose as first one Bodi svetilka (Be the light). And later on I explained that one of my main concepts for the series was light. Light in a meaning that you have to paint your own bright world when everything is dark around you. I was in a pretty bad state when painting this. But I was reading a lot about meditation and being present in the moment, and I realised that it's only me who can make myself happy. I am the only  one responsible for being master of my thoughts. And this was a challenge: to paint with warm, bright and joyful colours, even when I felt like violent red. And when the painting was finished, I felt good. I felt that it's going to be fine.

Tjaša is also a multi talented young woman: we both believe that art doesn't have just one form, but it's everything and everywhere. In photography, design, music, clothes.. Why would someone restrict himself if he/she enjoys the transitions? For a long time I was frustrated because I was told to choose one thing- but why if I want do them all?

I like to experiment with colours and mediums. The most amazing thing of painting is that you are really free. You can create whatever you want on that white canvas. This is why I could never stop painting- as long as I am such dreamer.

With my mom- she's totally one of the greatest coaches ever- she pushes me to work even when I don't feel like doing it.

 in the back my brother and his girlfriend

Polona is one of my best friends from university- we met after more than half year- and we both agreed that it seem yesterday. Time for real friends passes differently.

I'd like to thank everyone who came and all the team Ziferblat, the exhibition is up until 30 May 2015 so if you are around Ljubljana take a look!


April 23, 2015


Dragi bralci in bralke,

vabljeni na otvoritev moje samostojne razstave v kavarno Ziferblat v Ljubljani na Vegovi ulici 8 v petek, 24.4.2015 ob 18h.
Imeli se bomo fino, poklepetali ob čaju ali kozarcu vina in kakšno rekli o umetnosti in stvareh, ki nam dajejo navdih.

Razstava bo na ogled vse od konca maja 2015.

Upam, da se vidimo!

lp Andreja

March 25, 2015


tako ali tako se že vsi pretvarjamo 
da ima vse skupaj na tem svetu smisel
kot da ne bomo nikoli umrli
da smo kralji teh virtualnih trenutkov
in da je življenje ena sama velika loterija

kaj pa če bi se pretvarjala tudi jaz in ti
da je vse za vedno
da naju nič ne more ločiti
da metulji v trebuhu nikdar ne izginejo 
in da duša dvojčica obstaja, zares

samo danes
samo jutri 
samo dokler ne zaprem oči

- zgornja pesem je bila napisana v milanskem metroju na prvi list majhne beležke univerze v ljubljani, posvečena D., potem ko sva prejšnji večer gledala the theory of everything

- začela sem večkrat gledat v nebo, da se spomnem da smo majhni, in da konec koncev smisla ni in hkrati je, prav zdaj, prav tu.

- pogrešam slovenijo. slovenščino. čje in žje in šje. kosila v stadri. šivanje na faksu. popoldanske kave ob ljubljanici. interne fore iz ntfja. moje punce. 

- trenutno berem (goltam) ni je več. pred spanjem pa knjigo ki mi jo je podarila B. nisem slikala že nekaj časa, samo skiciram hecne kvaziavtoportrete. baterije se morajo napolniti. 

- pride čas ko se moraš posloviti od nekaterih ljudi in to boli. še posebej če so to ljudje s katerimi je možno graditi gradove v oblakih in živeti od barv in melodij. Hvala, Rafa.

- in gremo naprej. vsak dan znova. en vdih in en izdih.

March 6, 2015



My father Rajko and me had an exhibition opening this Sunday, 1st March in hotel Delfin in Izola, Slovenija. Many people came and we were really happy. An exhibition is always a milestone in a career, and it's always a big step forward, pushing you out of your comfort zone. 

The name of the series of paintings and monotypes is TROPICAL DEPTH. Lately I've been painting happy paintings. Because I think that in these dark times, or even if you tend to be dark inside, you need some light, some vivacious colours to lift you up.

In the series I was researching colours and shapes, lines and the relationship between all of them. Some are more wild and lively, others are more zen-alike. The colours are such a powerful tool to change our mood. Just watching at them can improve how you feel. My dear professor from university Marjeta Godler, also a painter, told me she found some deep freedom in my paintings.

Here are some pictures from the exhibition, I hope they will make your day brighter. If you are around Izola, go and take a look, the exhibition will take place until the end of March.

If you are interested in buying works or fine art prints, don't hesitate and write me on info (at)

Have a wonderful weekend, 


"tropical depth" 2014

with my dear friends and partner Dario

with one of my favourite paintings from the series

with my father

My father Rajko. I am so grateful to be his daughter and have his support on my artistic path. I learned so much from him, and I think he is a great artist. He loves nature, and this is why nature is in the spotlight in his paintings. He said that we need to reconnect with forests and find peace again. Each painting has a special energy, and as the title of his series says, we really do live in WONDERFUL WORLD.

February 27, 2015


Dragi bralci, lepo vabljeni to nedeljo ob 17h v hotel Delfin v Izoli, kjer bova razstavljala z očetom. Razstava bo na ogled do 31.marca. Se vidimo! :)

January 26, 2015


Dear readers,

Firstly, I wish you all the best in 2015.
It has been a long time since I wrote a proper post.

I want to thank you for still reading Drama in my head. Really. That makes me feel that there is someone out that cares about what I write. So thank you.

I tried many times to write for blog. Even now that you are reading this, I'm writing and deleting rows because I cannot find the right words to express what I want to say.

So let's say that this post is kind of introduction. A pilot version for 2015.

What I learned in the past few months and weeks and days and I want to share with you, RAW version:

- There is always going to be something depressive in your life. And only you can change this in your head. So don't wait for the perfect condition because it will never happen. Live with it.

- That we all need to feel more connected. Because that's the thing that prevents us to be depressed and unhappy. So let's gather together with positive people more often. (blogger meetup anyone? :) )

- That we should love more. And be aware that love hurts. I'm not talking one night stand, platonic and surface relationships fuelled by passion of the moment. I'm talking about loving someone that drives you crazy because he reflects like a mirror all the points that you need to work on. Really hard. But it is worth it. Because there is no thing such powerful as love.

- That we should love ourselves more. And be tough and soft in the same time. To be that kind of person you always wanted but didn't have courage to do it. And to give yourself permission to glow. Because we all need that.

- You are going to do mistakes. Like, serious mistakes. That will last days, weeks, or years. Ant that in the end you should use all those, embrace them and make a good art form them. And make a step forward.

- All good things require hard work and dedication. But in the end, isn't that the only reason we get out of bed? And even if we don't feel like doing so, we have to push ourselves like our mothers used to do it when we were in school.

- Be your own cheerleader. Because only you can lift yourself up even if there is everyone pushing you down. It seems surreal but it is true. Be your own coach, make art that feels good, put the dark sides on paper and leave them there.


My last work: series of paintings Tropical depth.

I am working on creating happy artworks, works that inspire you and give you that air of summer breeze and warmth.

Prints available upon request! 

love, Andreja

November 21, 2014


we'll be so beautiful 
when we get old

he said while holding my hands 
a bit cold from early autumn greyness
when I got this feeling of melancholy
that comes from things being too perfect

only yesterday I cried in his hug
for world being too cruel
not letting me do everything 
as I want

in that small moment
under the high ceiling of central station
few minutes before the departure
I realised I have everything

I am everything
the stars 
the air 
the water
and the colour
it's me

I have no border and no limit
I am love

photo from the series: / tropical depth /

I found this in my diary. It didn't seem great at that moment, now after few weeks I find it much more precious. Will be back soon.

August 26, 2014


I came back from a travel holiday few days ago, and I found myself sticking around, not knowing what to do with all this stable dynamics. When traveling, time passes differently. Even tough it was just a twelve days trip, it seemed a month. And in the end me and my boyfriend both agreed it could be just a great beginning.

We traveled with a motorbike, which is a completely different experience than traveling with a car or with public transport. I was afraid of motorbikes few years ago, along with many things. I remember trying to convince my boyfriend to go with a car instead, picturing in my head all the brutal accidents that could happen on the road. But as soon as we started driving, I realised how enormously stupid fear is. And this fear gets me every time. 

After few miles of driving through the forest we catch the sight of the sea, my other lover. I could already smell the salty breeze that caressed our naked necks. What I love about traveling with a motorbike is that you sense everything so intense. You are not closed in a safe box of a car, you feel the temperature, you hear the voices and sounds on the road, you smell the odours of nature, cities and cars, you feel the danger and the speed.

Motorbike gives you freedom, but every freedom has a price. You are like a nomad, wandering around in big boots and motorbike jacket even when it's 35 degrees with sun shining. You have to carry around all of your belongings including protection belts, gloves, documents and helmet. It's not for everyone, but it is for everyone who craves of something wild and free.

Maybe few years ago I wouldn't be ready for a travel like this. My travel bags were usually full of shoes, dresses and accessories. That outfit needed that bag, and I couldn't be in the same dress everyday, what kind of fashion girl would do that. And yet I find traveling light so deliberating, I had just one small bag, smaller than hand-luggage on a plane, where I had to put only urgent things that I'll need on the road. When my brother saw the bags, he asked me how was I supposed to put everything in those two small bags, I smiled: just one is mine.

This kind of travel changes the way you see yourself. With a everyday use of helmet, you can forget about good hair days. And your make up routine gets down to a lipstick and sunscreen. But the most curious thing is that you don't even need all those tricks that society states them as required. The wilderness and the road need no gold, no shiny belts or bracelets, no super full lashes mascara. What is a real beauty is waking up with a sun shining on your tent, hearing the sea waves few meters away, beside a person you love and you are so grateful for everything that exist in this world. You start enjoying small things as having a DIY salad on the beach, making grill with other people in camping, playing with small kittens on the street, enjoying the silence and darkness of the night full of stars.

Most of the time we are too spoiled and we forget that those are the things that make our existence full. No fancy beach bars, no loud music and cocktails, no glamour, nothing superficial can overcome the beauty of simplicity. If you are lucky and have a chance to find a private corner, I say also no clothes.

Now I crave for another voyage. I'd love to make longer one, the kind of travel that stretches your mind, that puts you in a position where you have no option but to hold on tight and ride. Through life, through your toughts, through the questions that may be life changing. Every non-conformist travel is a kick into reality, making you notice things you need to change, areas where you need to grow, fears you need to overcome.

And after any of this, you feel a bit more free, a bit more naked to yourself, but more strong. More wild.

more about the travel in the next post!